Diana Penty is on my mind...

No blogging so far because of no time. I’m always busy and actually not liking this busyness.  Since I’m writing after so many days, may be after 6 months, so lot of things on my mind. Somebody told me that more frustrated you become, more motivation you get to write the blog :P. So, here I start:

1.       My job was going real boring in past 4-5 months. Not just my work was going monotonous; environment in my team was also pathetic. 4 guys left the job from my team and 1 was fired. Now, who the hell can concentrate on work in such an environment? But things are going a bit smooth since last 10 days as work load has reduced and some how my Boss has divided my work among other colleagues too. And, I’m a part of a Project, which some Japanese are going to execute. So, some change of environment and work for me.

2.       Secondly, again same loneliness has captured me. Day in and day out I feel why there’s nobody to take care of me. I sometimes feel so lonely. Not because I’m weak or need assistance, but seriously its high time now and I need some one. The worst part is that I try to get back to PG. I was trying to contact her since last 1 yr. But she was ignoring me. I don’t know why. Also, my best friend J asked me to stay away from her. So, in march I think I spotted her in MGF and totally ignored her. While I was going towards parking lot, I couldn’t resist turning back and seeing her. What I notice was that she was also trying to get a glimpse of me. 

Then one day while I was texting her, she replied saying sorry. She wasn’t replying as she didn’t want to revisit her past. I only thought that there was nothing annoying or bad happened while we were in a relationship. Also, she said that she will talk to me some day. After that no response from her side. Somehow I realized its stupid to run after a person who’s not even bothered what I’m going through. So, now its end to PG’s chapter.

3.       I’m also trying to divert my mid by doing something different. I think gyming would work as I need it. Also, reading some novels by Cecelia Ahern. Read THE GIFT and now going on is THE TIME OF MY LIFE.  

4.       When you’re in such a state of mind, every other’s life seems to be perfect. Yes, like a guy who joined with me in PI left the job and went to Asian Paints at 15 LPA and bloody I’m slogging here L. Then, S went to Bombay, P going to USA etc. I’m happy to hear all this as they all are very nice people and my friends. But it puts an undue pressure on me to opt a path with success guaranteed. Hopefully, I would find that path soon.

5.       Also, I’m mad for Cocktail’s Diana Penty. Really dying to get the glimpse of this beautiful lady in Cocktail.

  

Rest of the rona-dhona in my next post as I would write regularly from now onwards to reduce my frustration.