Mixed feelings....

I’ve been encountering lot of mixed feelings from past 1-2 weeks. I’m in Goa for internship and its going fine. I’m happy that I’m giving my best. But still sometimes we feel rejoiced and sometimes very down on very minor issues. Same thing is going with me. I’ll start with part with happiness. Happiness comes from Bollywood. Yes, I really like Deepika padukone. I think she’s the prettiest actress I’ve liked after Juhi chawla. She’s damn cute in whatever she does either on screen or off screen. I didn’t like her in OSO with SRK. But last year, when I watched Love aajkal, I was lost in her. The way she acts, dances, cries, laughs is just awesome. I’m mad about her. I’m eagerly waiting for her new movie Houseful. I just love her.

Now comes some sad part. I’ve got some comments about my nature. I don’t know how to react on this. Somebody said that I behave in an extreme way. I love extreme and hate too. This is actually right about me. But I can’t help it.  I’m just like that and I’m happy the way I am.

Secondly, saw another brutal truth in this mean world. People promise, show affection, care and what not? But all these emotions and promises go in vain when time elapses. I don’t know why it happens. One should not show any hopes if he/she is incapable of doing anything. I know people stay busy. But you can still manage to take out some time. Anyways, I don’t need anyone’s care. I’m strong enough to fight anything in this world. I’m just saying this because time changes and with that people too.

Thirdly, I think I need someone and by this I mean something permanent. Someone for the lifetime so that I can completely rely upon her and never feel alone. Everything is going just fine in my life. The only dream left is this. Just because of this, I stay bit alone these days. But this doesn’t mean that I’m a pessimist. Was just feeling this way these days. I know these emotions will vanish soon with time. Fingers crossed :)

I'm Professional.. now...

So, my summer internship has started and today was my 4th day @ Glenmark generics Ltd. in Mumbai. Monday was the first day and was really special as it was my first office day. I reached andheri, where Glenmark’s HO is located which is a huge 6 floor building opposite to HUL, at 8.45 am. I called HR and she asked me wait for some time. After around 1 hour, she came and said that I will have to wait for another 1 hour as my work centre was getting ready and PC configured. I was rejoiced thinking that I’ll be treated as an employee of managerial position.
Around 12 noon, I was taken at my work centre and was given log in id and password of my computer along with a glenmark mail id i.e. deepeshk@glenmark-generics.com and a landline phone. Now that was something I was feeling proud of. The HR instructed to start online induction on Glenmark’s intranet. So I obeyed her and she told me that I’ll be meeting VP, supply chain management, who is also my mentor. Some kind of different feeling was running in my heart with lot of butterflies. Finally in the evening at 6pm I got the chance to meet my mentor who is generally damn busy. He gave me the project details and also told me that I’ve to go Goa next week to pursue the project and have hands on experience of operations management. He told me that whole of my staying arrangements will be taken care of. I was feeling glad on this.
Life has changed a bit now. It feels completely professional. I was thinking how the life would be once I’m in job. Lot of questions run in my mind daily with scary answers. I hope everything will be fine.