I’ve been encountering lot of mixed feelings from past 1-2 weeks. I’m in Goa for internship and its going fine. I’m happy that I’m giving my best. But still sometimes we feel rejoiced and sometimes very down on very minor issues. Same thing is going with me. I’ll start with part with happiness. Happiness comes from Bollywood. Yes, I really like Deepika padukone. I think she’s the prettiest actress I’ve liked after Juhi chawla. She’s damn cute in whatever she does either on screen or off screen. I didn’t like her in OSO with SRK. But last year, when I watched Love aajkal, I was lost in her. The way she acts, dances, cries, laughs is just awesome. I’m mad about her. I’m eagerly waiting for her new movie Houseful. I just love her.
Now comes some sad part. I’ve got some comments about my nature. I don’t know how to react on this. Somebody said that I behave in an extreme way. I love extreme and hate too. This is actually right about me. But I can’t help it. I’m just like that and I’m happy the way I am.
Secondly, saw another brutal truth in this mean world. People promise, show affection, care and what not? But all these emotions and promises go in vain when time elapses. I don’t know why it happens. One should not show any hopes if he/she is incapable of doing anything. I know people stay busy. But you can still manage to take out some time. Anyways, I don’t need anyone’s care. I’m strong enough to fight anything in this world. I’m just saying this because time changes and with that people too.
Thirdly, I think I need someone and by this I mean something permanent. Someone for the lifetime so that I can completely rely upon her and never feel alone. Everything is going just fine in my life. The only dream left is this. Just because of this, I stay bit alone these days. But this doesn’t mean that I’m a pessimist. Was just feeling this way these days. I know these emotions will vanish soon with time. Fingers crossed :)
