kab tak gine hum dhadkane.. dil jaise dhadke dhadkne do..

With new hopes and new problems, I’m writing this post. I’ve started feeling that my life and state of mind is going exactly same as of P’s who always cribs about personal entangled with professional life and later taking toll of you. Since last 2 weeks my Saturdays are working and will go on till diwali. WTF! If company wants to earn extra profit, then what is our benefit from that-same salary which we could have got after working 5 days. Then why to put extra efforts!! Damn! Even Samsung or LG don’t do this to their employees. I know we are growing, but there has to be some line of separation between your personal and professional life. My boss is good but I don’t like his concept of just making me to sit in the office till late because I’m bachelor and don’t live with my family, so ghar jakar kya karte ho?? I don’t understand to sit in the office because your boss is sitting.

My flatmate and friend says that I’m fed up very early from this corporate culture. And yes, He’s right because I can’t take this anymore just for money. So, now I’ve started searching for something else which I would reveal later. Mental peace I always possess. But I want to live for myself and my family. I’m the only son and I’ve to support my family and my sisters which I can’t do in this busy schedule. Since, Wednesday I’m working more than 12 hrs or just staying in the office for more than 12 hrs. Though I follow SRK madly who used to and still works for more than 12 hrs, but he started this because he had too much responsibilities. His parents died, he had to support his sister and also look after his career. It was tough for him and had no other options. But I do have options to make my life better. Even I want to work real hard but at the same time don’t want to neglect my personal life. I want stability in life.

Since the day I’ve seen ZNMD, I’ve only this notion of “to live it up” and I would definitely do that. It may happen that, I would buy home few years later in comparison with current situation, I would earn less, I would just buy polo instead of my dream car Honda Accord. But I would be happy to be with my family whenever they need me unlike current situation. I would prefer to have less money and more happiness instead of vice versa.  I want to make it large. This whole josh has come from ZNMD and my pathetic professional life going. Also, I follow lyrics of this song:

hey hey chalo na
dhoondhe sheher naya
jahaan muskurahaten hain bikhri
jahaan se ghum ka mausam gaya
jahaan meethi baatein
har ik ajnabi se ho
bhoole hum bhi jo saari fikren
lamha lamha khushiyan bikhren
idhar udhar aur yahan wahan
jaayen wahin dil kahe jahaan
baby baby baby
kab tak gine hum dhadkane
dil jaise dhadke dhadakne do
kyun hai koi aag dabi
shola jo bhadke bhadakne do
hey hey chalo na
gaaye naye naye geet
khel aisa kyun na koi khele
jisme sabhi ki ho jeet
in dino phool aur taare
koi bhi dekhta nahi
dekhe unko deewane hoke
koi kitna bhi humko toke
khuli hawa ho khula samaa
jaage hue ho sab armaan
baby baby baby
kab tak gine hum dhadkane
dil jaise dhadke dhadakne do
kyun hai koi aag dabi
shola jo bhadke bhadakne do
humse dil ne kahi jo baatein aao maan le
jispe chalta nahi hai koi raah wo chale
thodi aawargi ho
thodi thodi madhoshiyaan ho baby
hum ho tum ho baby tell me
kab tak gine hum dhadkane
dil jaise dhadke dhadakne do
kyun hai koi aag dabi
shola jo bhadke bhadakne do
kab tak gine hum dhadkane
dil jaise dhadke dhadakne do
kyun hai koi aag dabi
shola jo bhadke bhadakne do
kab tak gine hum dhadkane
dil jaise dhadke dhadakne do
kyun hai koi aag dabi
shola jo bhadke bhadakne do

Well, rest of my life is going ok-ok types. Now I have only Sundays to spend in peace. I’m always engrossed in my past memories especially of my school. Even I was telling this to someone that I want to go back to my school and just sit near basketball court with same batch of students and same teachers, no matter how old everyone may be. But I know it’s not possible as it goes:

Nagme hai, shikwe  hai

Kisse hai, baatein hai

Baatein bhool jati, yaadein yaad aati hai!!

Yeh yaadein kisi dilo janam ke chale jane ke baad aati hai..

Yaadein..haiii yaadein…

more on my life, later.

New Life.

Writing blog after 2 months. So lot has changed in these 2 months as I’m no more a student today. Done with NITIE on 26^th may, 2011. Job started from 15^th june,11. Too much mixed feelings coming to me from last 2 months. For 1^st 10 days, it was just corporate induction and real work started from 27^th june. I’m assigned my work in some way and not fully. Giving my real best in everything I’m doing in office and also trying to learn a lot. Best part is that my boss is very amazing and supportive personality who has lot of faith in me just because I’m from NITIE J . The day we had corporate dinner with top management during induction, my boss also came and said that he expects a lot from me because NITIE has its vast presence in industry. I felt bit under pressure to perform but then he lightened the mood by saying “take it easy, work hard and rest leave it on me”. Just want to praise him because he’s really a nice guy or a boss everyone desires.

I’m given a role of distribution planner with designation of asst. manager. I’m loving it, at least currently. People are nice at my work place. Everyone is very supportive with no arrogance. In short I’m loving culture. May be because it’s a Japanese company. Also, I would be going to Japan in august end for a week J . Really excited about it.

Moreover I’m staying with D, my school friend since class 9^th. We are great buddies. In this world of selfish people, at least I’m in safe haven.

If I see broader picture, then everything is fine. But if I analyze closely then I found myself confused. First confusion starts with “should I opt for PSU job in near future?” this question is troubling me since last 1 month cos I’m really liking Panasonic. But don’t know how long I’m going to like it. Secondly, I’ve started missing my school, college and NITIE days a lot. Its not like I’m frustrated with my corporate days or bored with it. But it feels that those were wonderful days. For instance, I’m suffering from cold and cough from last 1 week, but I didn’t take any leave just cos it’s a new job or after all it’s a job and not college or school L where I could take leave on my will (btw, I was reluctant in taking leaves while I was in school and college as I never liked to skip work).

Sometimes I see myself in character Ted of HIMYM(P.S I was noticing this from long back and not trying to copy FRIENDS from P’s blog :P ). I really feel whatever he does is very similar to what I’ve done so far in life. I studied hard like him, got a good job, then been in more than 1 relationships and every now and then it seems I’m about to enter another one like him L. But I don’t have many friends like him who are as supportive as his. I mean I do have but all are far away unlike him whose friends are always with him. Actually I like all characters of this series. Marshal, Lily, Robbin, stupid barney and always changing Ted’s GFs.

More on this later.