No blogging so far because of no time. I’m always busy and
actually not liking this busyness. Since
I’m writing after so many days, may be after 6 months, so lot of things on my
mind. Somebody told me that more frustrated you become, more motivation you get
to write the blog :P. So, here I start:
1.
My job was going real boring in past 4-5 months.
Not just my work was going monotonous; environment in my team was also
pathetic. 4 guys left the job from my team and 1 was fired. Now, who the hell
can concentrate on work in such an environment? But things are going a bit
smooth since last 10 days as work load has reduced and some how my Boss has
divided my work among other colleagues too. And, I’m a part of a Project, which
some Japanese are going to execute. So, some change of environment and work for
me.
2.
Secondly, again same loneliness has captured me.
Day in and day out I feel why there’s nobody to take care of me. I sometimes
feel so lonely. Not because I’m weak or need assistance, but seriously its high
time now and I need some one. The worst part is that I try to get back to PG. I
was trying to contact her since last 1 yr. But she was ignoring me. I don’t
know why. Also, my best friend J asked me to stay away from her. So, in march I
think I spotted her in MGF and totally ignored her. While I was going towards
parking lot, I couldn’t resist turning back and seeing her. What I notice was
that she was also trying to get a glimpse of me.
Then one day while I was texting her, she
replied saying sorry. She wasn’t replying as she didn’t want to revisit her
past. I only thought that there was nothing annoying or bad happened while we
were in a relationship. Also, she said that she will talk to me some day. After
that no response from her side. Somehow I realized its stupid to run after a person
who’s not even bothered what I’m going through. So, now its end to PG’s
chapter.
3.
I’m also trying to divert my mid by doing something
different. I think gyming would work as I need it. Also, reading some novels by
Cecelia Ahern. Read THE GIFT and now going on is THE TIME OF MY LIFE.
4.
When you’re in such a state of mind, every other’s
life seems to be perfect. Yes, like a guy who joined with me in PI left the job
and went to Asian Paints at 15 LPA and bloody I’m slogging here L. Then, S went to
Bombay, P going to USA etc. I’m happy to hear all this as they all are very
nice people and my friends. But it puts an undue pressure on me to opt a path
with success guaranteed. Hopefully, I would find that path soon.
5.
Also, I’m mad for Cocktail’s Diana Penty.
Really dying to get the glimpse of this beautiful lady in Cocktail.
Rest of the rona-dhona in my next post as I would write regularly from now
onwards to reduce my frustration.
