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 So today’s lazy Sunday and I planned to go panajim’s Miramar beach. But couldn’t get anyone to come along.  So dropped the idea and slept for 3 hours. I know it sounds boring. This is what I’ve been doing from the last 3 Sundays. But can’t help it. I’m just counting my days here in Goa. Also, I bought a Sony’s Digital camera from my 1^st salary. Yippee… I was planning to buy it from long back and now finally it’s here. Though it’s very basic model but it will serve the purpose for the time being.

As I wrote it was a lazy Sunday, so I was fully occupied with only thoughts and no actions. I was actually thinking about my friend P. I don’t know whether we are good buddies, only buddies or just college mates because we don’t talk to each other on phone regularly. We don’t chat regularly. We don’t ask about each other’s wellbeing. We only chat after reading the status on gtalk. I’m such a stupid that forgot his birthday this time and wished him the same day but at the last. I’m really very very bad in remembering wedding, birthday, anniversary dates. God help me else my wife would kill me. :P

I prefer not to disturb him because he stays very busy. If he takes time in replying, then I try not to ping him again. He never calls me. It’s not like I expect a call always but sometimes I ask myself do friends behave like this?

But still in all those 4 years of college, I’ve laughed with him, studied with him (though sometimes), had fun with him and also cried with him. Yes, I’ve cried on his shoulders because he could only understand my tears. When nobody could understand me or my problem, I always called him and he was there with me. He supported me in my really tough times when even my love backed out. I really miss him sometimes. But actually he’s always in hurry. So can’t afford to waste his time. For me, he’s my true buddy. I don’t know about his opinion.  

I know he reads my blog. But the purpose of writing this post is not to tell him anything. Actually I really admire him for the way he is. He has a small child in him who makes him laugh, to enjoy, to worry, to dance and to sing too. I’m not saying that this child is not there in me but I don’t expose him all the time. I just smile at him when the child in me reacts to anything.  He is a geeky types who’s always engrossed in all news, novels, latest updates and what not. But I’m not like that. I respect the way he is though sometimes I get irritated when he doesn’t chats with me aimlessly, when he doesn’t talks on phone much, when he’s always in hurry. But he’s my friend and I don’t want him to change his behaviour towards me. I always try to keep him with me forever like FRIENDS FOREVER :)

LORD OF LIGHT..It is..

Today, I feel the most stupid person in this world. The reason behind this is something that everyone will laugh at. From my childhood, I always thought that my name’s meaning is Lamp of God. This is because I’m over influence by Hindi language. I read “sandhi vichhed” in class 10th and did sandhi for my name i.e. Deep+esh. I derived the meaning as lamp of God. Actually I can’t even blame my parents for that since it’s a Sanskrit word.
So by chance, today, I was searching the meaning of my name on google and the search returned something totally different. So finally, the meaning of my name is “Lord of Light”. Actually, it’s feeling very very stupid to change the mind set about the meaning of my name after 23 years. But will do it for sure.