My mitr...

 So today’s lazy Sunday and I planned to go panajim’s Miramar beach. But couldn’t get anyone to come along.  So dropped the idea and slept for 3 hours. I know it sounds boring. This is what I’ve been doing from the last 3 Sundays. But can’t help it. I’m just counting my days here in Goa. Also, I bought a Sony’s Digital camera from my 1^st salary. Yippee… I was planning to buy it from long back and now finally it’s here. Though it’s very basic model but it will serve the purpose for the time being.

As I wrote it was a lazy Sunday, so I was fully occupied with only thoughts and no actions. I was actually thinking about my friend P. I don’t know whether we are good buddies, only buddies or just college mates because we don’t talk to each other on phone regularly. We don’t chat regularly. We don’t ask about each other’s wellbeing. We only chat after reading the status on gtalk. I’m such a stupid that forgot his birthday this time and wished him the same day but at the last. I’m really very very bad in remembering wedding, birthday, anniversary dates. God help me else my wife would kill me. :P

I prefer not to disturb him because he stays very busy. If he takes time in replying, then I try not to ping him again. He never calls me. It’s not like I expect a call always but sometimes I ask myself do friends behave like this?

But still in all those 4 years of college, I’ve laughed with him, studied with him (though sometimes), had fun with him and also cried with him. Yes, I’ve cried on his shoulders because he could only understand my tears. When nobody could understand me or my problem, I always called him and he was there with me. He supported me in my really tough times when even my love backed out. I really miss him sometimes. But actually he’s always in hurry. So can’t afford to waste his time. For me, he’s my true buddy. I don’t know about his opinion.  

I know he reads my blog. But the purpose of writing this post is not to tell him anything. Actually I really admire him for the way he is. He has a small child in him who makes him laugh, to enjoy, to worry, to dance and to sing too. I’m not saying that this child is not there in me but I don’t expose him all the time. I just smile at him when the child in me reacts to anything.  He is a geeky types who’s always engrossed in all news, novels, latest updates and what not. But I’m not like that. I respect the way he is though sometimes I get irritated when he doesn’t chats with me aimlessly, when he doesn’t talks on phone much, when he’s always in hurry. But he’s my friend and I don’t want him to change his behaviour towards me. I always try to keep him with me forever like FRIENDS FOREVER :)

LORD OF LIGHT..It is..

Today, I feel the most stupid person in this world. The reason behind this is something that everyone will laugh at. From my childhood, I always thought that my name’s meaning is Lamp of God. This is because I’m over influence by Hindi language. I read “sandhi vichhed” in class 10th and did sandhi for my name i.e. Deep+esh. I derived the meaning as lamp of God. Actually I can’t even blame my parents for that since it’s a Sanskrit word.
So by chance, today, I was searching the meaning of my name on google and the search returned something totally different. So finally, the meaning of my name is “Lord of Light”. Actually, it’s feeling very very stupid to change the mind set about the meaning of my name after 23 years. But will do it for sure.

Mixed feelings....

I’ve been encountering lot of mixed feelings from past 1-2 weeks. I’m in Goa for internship and its going fine. I’m happy that I’m giving my best. But still sometimes we feel rejoiced and sometimes very down on very minor issues. Same thing is going with me. I’ll start with part with happiness. Happiness comes from Bollywood. Yes, I really like Deepika padukone. I think she’s the prettiest actress I’ve liked after Juhi chawla. She’s damn cute in whatever she does either on screen or off screen. I didn’t like her in OSO with SRK. But last year, when I watched Love aajkal, I was lost in her. The way she acts, dances, cries, laughs is just awesome. I’m mad about her. I’m eagerly waiting for her new movie Houseful. I just love her.

Now comes some sad part. I’ve got some comments about my nature. I don’t know how to react on this. Somebody said that I behave in an extreme way. I love extreme and hate too. This is actually right about me. But I can’t help it.  I’m just like that and I’m happy the way I am.

Secondly, saw another brutal truth in this mean world. People promise, show affection, care and what not? But all these emotions and promises go in vain when time elapses. I don’t know why it happens. One should not show any hopes if he/she is incapable of doing anything. I know people stay busy. But you can still manage to take out some time. Anyways, I don’t need anyone’s care. I’m strong enough to fight anything in this world. I’m just saying this because time changes and with that people too.

Thirdly, I think I need someone and by this I mean something permanent. Someone for the lifetime so that I can completely rely upon her and never feel alone. Everything is going just fine in my life. The only dream left is this. Just because of this, I stay bit alone these days. But this doesn’t mean that I’m a pessimist. Was just feeling this way these days. I know these emotions will vanish soon with time. Fingers crossed :)

I'm Professional.. now...

So, my summer internship has started and today was my 4th day @ Glenmark generics Ltd. in Mumbai. Monday was the first day and was really special as it was my first office day. I reached andheri, where Glenmark’s HO is located which is a huge 6 floor building opposite to HUL, at 8.45 am. I called HR and she asked me wait for some time. After around 1 hour, she came and said that I will have to wait for another 1 hour as my work centre was getting ready and PC configured. I was rejoiced thinking that I’ll be treated as an employee of managerial position.
Around 12 noon, I was taken at my work centre and was given log in id and password of my computer along with a glenmark mail id i.e. deepeshk@glenmark-generics.com and a landline phone. Now that was something I was feeling proud of. The HR instructed to start online induction on Glenmark’s intranet. So I obeyed her and she told me that I’ll be meeting VP, supply chain management, who is also my mentor. Some kind of different feeling was running in my heart with lot of butterflies. Finally in the evening at 6pm I got the chance to meet my mentor who is generally damn busy. He gave me the project details and also told me that I’ve to go Goa next week to pursue the project and have hands on experience of operations management. He told me that whole of my staying arrangements will be taken care of. I was feeling glad on this.
Life has changed a bit now. It feels completely professional. I was thinking how the life would be once I’m in job. Lot of questions run in my mind daily with scary answers. I hope everything will be fine.

Cherishing the memories...

Lot of adventures happened in the past 20 days and I was really busy with academics, CPIM exam preparation and also some outing :D.

1. In the first week of February, we had a URS festival outside the NITIE gate where lot of things were present to attract people like giant wheel, death’s well (maut ka kua) and much more. I was really very very interested to go there but none of my friends were ready. But one day me and A decided to go there after dinner and then some more people joined us. We saw death’s well where 2 guys rode the bike on walls of the well and 1 guy drove a car there. It was really scary to see them. After that we went to some more rides which included giant wheel. While I was in the giant wheel, I was lost in my childhood memories when I use to go in a festival called gughaal ka mela in Saharanpur with my family. I was thinking how I use to hold the hand of my father and keep myself busy in watching toys etc. there. But now time has changed and today I was in such a kind of mela without my parents. It’s been a long time when I went to my city’s mela last. It’s a different feeling today to roam at different places without holding dad’s hand because we’ve grown up. But still I want to go in such festivals with my family and want to hold my dad’s hand again to cherish those wonderful memories.

2. Next adventure happened when we were attending our regular classes. Our lecture got over and as usual we went to have a cup of tea at canteen in academic block. We always have 10 minutes break between 2 lectures. In a lax way, we spent around 15 minutes there only and then when we went to the classroom, the room was locked from inside. Actually the environmental management’s professor is very strict. Like this we were thrown out of the class. We were thinking what to do next. So we planned to go Kala Ghoda art festival in churchgate. We were a group of 9 and had lots of masti on our way to churchgate by local train. Frankly saying, I liked kala ghoda but not that much as I don’t know how to appreciate art or on what parameters. I was a feeling a kind of bore there. Not only me but my few other friends also, excluding females as they go gaga over many things.

3. After KALA GHODA, we went for dinner and on our way saw Cyrus barocha shooting for some MTV show. Since we skipped our snacks, we were very hungry and stuffed ourselves. After this, next adventure was MARINE DRIVE. It was 11 in the night and we were sitting on the side of marine drive looking at the hotel Trident’s huge building and also enjoying cool sea breeze. It was really an awesome experience. I must say that Marine drive is the best place in Mumbai. It’s also called Necklace road as it is in semi circular shape. We clicked lot of pictures also. One end of marine drive is nariman point where the last seen of Wake up sid was shot. We sat on the rocks there for around 25 minutes. After this we went back to college. But still last fun of the day was singing songs in local @ 1 am.

4. MNIK released on 12th February and I was really eager to watch that movie. But none of my friends except A and D were ready to go and watch it. So I made plan with D who backed out on the last moment due to Sena-SRK tussle. It was Saturday and I was really depressed as I couldn’t find anyone to come along with me. I talked to P on chat who watched it and he told me not to destroy my fun just because of others and I realised that I have hell lot of dreams which I have to fulfil and can’t wait for anyone’s approval. So I decided to go alone and this was my first movie watched alone in a theatre. I really enjoyed it. MNIK rocks and so my dreams :). By the way, MNIK is SRK’s best performance ever and it’s a must watch.

5. And at last but not at least, we went to Thane for tree plantation activity with a NGO called HARIYALI, last Saturday. It was fun and we plan to go there in the future also. Currently I’m really busy with CPIM preparation whose exam is on 13th march and on 14th march I’ll be off to home. Really need some break to avoid being a home sick.

SRK- the living LEGEND...

This post is dedicated to my idol Shah Rukh Khan. You all must be surprised to hear this. Usually whenever I say that SRK is my idol, the people think that I’m too crazy about him. The fact is that he is my favourite actor and also my idol. People, usually, don’t like this when I praise SRK. But I can’t help it.
The reason for his being my idol is that this man has never seen any downward trend in his career as he is just the perfect. I want to be like him in whatever I do. He started his life from a scratch. Right from the days of fauji, circus and DDLJ, the man has achieved great success. He is one of those few stars who landed in Mumbai during 90s and were unable to have a full fledged house. But this man owns his house in bandra i.e. Mannat. I’m, actually, really impressed by his whole life and the various twists and turns it took. Not just his professional life, but his personal life has also been really fascinating. He did his schooling from St. Columbia, New Delhi and after that did his graduation from Hansraj college and then his masters from Jamia university, Delhi. In the mean time, he was doing theatres and plays and at that time only he did tv serials like fauji, circus which I loved watching and watched just because of him.
From his college days only, he loved Gauri and what a love he had and still have for her that he moved to Bombay in order to search her. He said once that he came Bombay with his friend and even slept at CST station in the night due to unavailability of accommodation. His friend said that there at CST he stood up and pointed to the buildings and said “One day, I’ll rule this city”. Finally, he is doing that. The aura he carries around him is just awesome and any one can go mad about him.
After his first movie Deewana which was a hit, he did some average movies also and then finally came Baazigar and Darr which gave villainous avatar to his personality and he even won filmfare award for best actor for Bazigar. The twist in his career came in 1995 when he became overnight star by DDLJ. Since that day, the man has not looked back. Some of his hit flicks are:
Deewana, Chamatkar, Baazigar, Darr( I love it where he played a passionate lover), Karan Arjun, DDLJ(the biggest blockbuster of Indian Cinema and also my all time favourite movie), Yes Boss, Pardes, Dil to Pagal Hai, Dil se, Kuch kuch hota hai, Baadshah, Mohabbatein( again played a dedicated lover), Asoka, Kabhi khushi kabhi gham(my favourite movie), Devdas(awesome performance), Kal Ho na ho(again my favourite), Main hoo na, Veer Zara, Swades(all three I like), Chak de India where he showcased his true actor for the first time, as he says and at last but not at least is Kabhi Alvida na kehna. I simply love this movie and have watched it around 6-7 times. But don’t know why people hate this.
Today, he acts, advertises, owns his cricket team KKR, lots of property across the globe, runs his production house Redchillies entertainment and what not which I don’t know.
Another thing which attracts me towards him is that he is also a Scorpion like me. So I always feel great to share my zodiac with stars like SRK and Aishwarya rai and it inspires me to attain success like him. Cool thing is that his son’s birthday coincides with mine on 11th November. If you observe carefully around you, then you will find that the man is everywhere, be it a multiplex theatre, TV, mall, road side banners or hoarding etc. His motto is that wherever people go, they should find him there. I like this thing which keeps him so busy that he sometimes is not able to sleep for 3 consecutive days. Some of his famous quotes are:

1. There are only two Khans. Ghenghis Khan and Shahrukh Khan.

2. I’d die if people didnt recognise me. I would not be able to walk on the road if people didnt mob me. That’s what I work for.

3. When I have the right to make you cry in a dark room for three hours, you have the right to ask me any question you want.

4. Sex is not required to sell my film. My name is enough.

5. Awards who ignores me are losers.

6. You never win the silver, you only lose the gold.

7. The dream I chased, took me on a journey. A journey more rewarding then the goals, the achievements. When I look back it’s like facing a million mirrors. Each reflection opens a window. A window to the world I’ve just discovered. The world I want to share with all of you.

8. Thank you for giving me so much love, that I don’t miss my parents anymore.

9. You can love me or hate me but.. you can’t ignore me.

10. I am very shy. If I am flying British Airways and the airhostess asks me two questions, and I don’t understand her accent - I will go hungry for the entire flight.

By the way, I’m waiting very badly for his new movie My Name is Khan, releasing on 12th February and I’m dying to watch it. Well, I've much more to write which I skipped thinking about to avoid making this post too lengthy. But, yes he is a LIVING LEGEND...
CHEERS TO SRK !!! :)

Yeh jo Des hai Tera...Swades hai tera...

Few days back, I went to a village to meet someone with my mom. As my mom doesn’t trust my driving, so she insisted to take public transport. We took a 3-wheelar in which there were other villagers also. It was fun travelling with them and at the same time I was thinking about the problems faced by the farmers of our nation. They were actually talking about the incentives given to them. They were saying that no incentives reaches to them and ministers are all corrupt.

In the changing times, they still face the problem of dowry. For the name sake, the roads are built every year but still the pathetic condition of the roads says it all. It’s mainly because of the poor quality of material used and the huge commissions taken by the ministers, contractors and middle men, from the funds. They were actually hailing our one of the previous leaders- Lal Bahadur Shastri who made huge efforts in uplifting the farmers of India.

After some time we reached a point from where we had to walk in order to go to the desired village called Manakpur. As I was walking, I was recollecting the words of our Marketing professor who once said that “when HUL recruits anyone from the colleges like NITIE :D, IIMs, SPJ, then the very first posting he/she gets is in the villages of Bihar or UP because if he can generate sales in those villages then he can be successful anywhere in India”. And that, let me tell you, holds very true. While walking, I also noticed one thing that some of the small children passing by us greeted my mom by saying “Namaste ji”. When I asked my mom that does she know them, she answered no and told me that they give respect to everyone who comes from the city. Now that’s something called the Culture of India which is almost hidden in our modern cities.

We reached there and met the person concerned. We also had lunch which they served us so respectfully. While returning again we had to walk a certain distance. While walking we encountered some farmers who were reaping small plantlets of sarso. My mom saw them and asked to give some sarso to us as she never spares a single instance of getting something discounted or free. I was feeling a bit awkward. When my mom asked about money then those farmers refused. For them, 10-25 rupees doesn’t make much difference. That’s the kind of heart carried by our farmers.

After I came back, I thought that though our FM declares that we are growing @ 7.9% even in these recessionary times but still we can’t see that 7.9% growth in these villages. That is only confined to our cities. Still a lot needs to be done to make our villages as dreamt by late Mr. Lal Bahadur Shastri. To make India look big, we require efforts from each one of us. But this will not happen because people like me who are so selfish that they only think about a life full of leisure, a job with fat package and a home in Delhi or Mumbai. They can’t think about India. They can only satisfy their own desires.