Passion and Inspiration

Currently the hottest topic of discussion in India is Cricket world cup 2011 and moreover MS Dhoni – Captain of Indian Cricket team. Since the day India won the final match against Sri Lanka, all are praising M S Dhoni for his captaincy that has helped India in winning this trophy.  Sachin Tendulkar has gone 1 step ahead saying Dhoni is the best captain he has played under in Indian Cricket team. I know that would definitely hurt Saurav Ganguly, if not Mohd. Azharuddin. This mania will go on for at least 2 months because of IPL is also in the cue where Dhoni will be leading Chennai Super Kings. Awards, money, name, fame and what not, are showering on Indian Captain. Well, he deserves this. He has created his own place in the history of Indian cricket adjacent to another Cricketing icon Mr. Kapil Dev, who won World cup for India in 1983. 

 

In BE days, I watched a inspirational video where Kapil Dev was featured showing “only Indian captain who won Cricket World cup for India and currently a professional golfer”. That’s the kind of respect which is given to Kapil Dev. I was thinking what it takes to be a champion or rather a leader like Kapil Dev or M S Dhoni or a fantastic Cricket icon like Sachin Tendulkar. It takes a lot. Even Dhoni never had imagined that he would be leading Indian Cricket team and would win the World cup after Kapil Dev. It takes a lot to be Dhoni, Kapil or Sachin. It takes day in and day out hard work on the field and sharpening your skills. I remember when I was in 6^th standard; I used to go to play cricket in the morning during summer vacation. I used to play with my best friend J and get angry each time he defeat me as he was good in Cricket. I always felt bad and would discontinue for 2 days. After 2 days, again we play like dat. He was very committed to cricket and even went to Kanpur for selection. But Luck didn’t favour him. He used to work really hard on Cricket throughout his school days. He used to wake up early, ran a lot, play Cricket.

CWC 2011 final's ticket of Sakshi Rawat signed by MS Dhoni

 

I believe if J did so much and still couldn’t play at state level, I feel how much Dhoni could have done for international selection. And that’s why he is our proud Indian Captain who did everything for his passion. People see his awards, money, skills etc. but nobody sees the hard work behind this skill set. And above all the calmness he shows on and off the field which is just amazing. Somebody has rightly said “Follow your passion and rest will follow you”.  I still remember his smile after hitting six of victory which showed “finally, we did it”. The man wasn’t even seen in the front runners for snaps, videos or giving interviews. When entire team was taking round of the ground while carrying Sachin, the man was completely out if focus. That’s called character which never shows off. It needs guts to stay away from showing off after doing so many efforts, that too not for family, friends or city etc. but for the nation. Also, he lost his calm during batting where he shouted at Yuvi for not running too fast for the single run. That was memorable moment where the captain cool lost his calm. Even after winning, all team mates were jumping, crying, shouting in joy. He walked silently with a smile. I just love that style of him. Salute to his style. Finally, he’s also in the list of my inspirational people after Bhagat Singh, Sachin Tendulkar and Kapil Dev. Dhoni, You are really a man of character who with his calmness, great leadership, great skills gave us another reason to cheer and feel as a proud Indian. 

And since then, I’m just thinking every minute that I want to become Dhoni, which isn’t possible now. But yes, would try my best to do things in regular life as beautifully as done by Mr. Dhoni.

Enough of Dhoni, and now comes Sachin- the man playing cricket since he was 16, aka God of Cricket. The man created many records that nobody can even think of breaking but was away from the title of World cup winning squad. And finally, the dream is achieved. Now his profile is perfect. I still remember the article written by Harsha Bhogle after India lost to South Africa in league matches of world cup. Here’s the link  http://tigershetty.wordpress.com/2011/03/14/article-by-harsha-bhogle-after-india-vs-south-africa-match-in-the-world-cup-march-2011/

That’s the real hard work which leads to simply perfection. I know luck also plays its part. But not fully. I remember how he ran in the field like a small child after Dhoni’s six. These moments will stay forever in our hearts as we felt as Proud Indians. What if every one of us shows such dedication and passion in whatever we do! We can’t even imagine how well we would progress.

 

Finally, the 3 men I’m desperate to meet includes Sachin, SRK and Dhoni. Not because they are celebrities. But because they are self made men with great character, down to earth, totally calm without any attitude, started from a scratch and now scaling heights they didn’t even imagine.

Sometimes I feel why most of the middle class land up in profession/job they don’t like at all. If I take my example, I would say it just feels fine to carve the career after BE and MBA. I know I would get bored of what I’ll be doing 20 years down the line because I didn’t follow my passion or rather I didn’t recognise my passion.  Well, anyways, nothing can be done now because risk could have been taken at that time. It was high risk game. But high risk yields high return. I hate mediocre life. Mediocre life kills everyone. Probably it’s too early to say but I’ve decided to ask my children to follow their passion and I would take care of the rest.

Ideas for Life... :)

 

Ok so hold on! Finally writing this post explaining some great changes in past 3-4 months. I can’t write as P does because I feel writing blog is bit boring when no one reads it :P unlike P’s blog which is read by many. Poor me who was inspired by P to write and damn no one reads it L. Bu I couldn’t sustain to write this blog because of my slow typing pace. Hats off to P who writes even in hectic schedule of his job.  

 Anyways, Life is bit stable now days because I got a job in Panasonic through campus recruitment drive at NITIE. Though it’s not a job I desired considering its salary package. I desired to get somewhere around 12-13. But this is also decent enough. Panasonic sends their MBA recruits to Japan during 6 months training period. But looking at the scenario in Japan right now, I don’t see any hope for next atleast 1 year. This may sound selfish but it’s one of the dimensions of human behaviour. Whatever is going on in Japan is really sad and I pray for those unfortunate people. But at the same time, that event shouldn’t have affected me. Anyways, as Bill gates says “LIFE ISN’T FAIR, GET USED TO IT”. I am getting used to it L

One good thing about my job is that I would be joining in HO at Gurgaon which is close to my place. So I can easily go home on weekends and in case of any emergency. Also, most of my friends are in Delhi so I can meet them easily. I was happy because Panasonic only selected me from NITIE but now it seems they should have selected more so that I would join with some known guys instead of totally unknown people. I find it bit difficult in dealing with new people. But will be successful in it for sure.

We have winter internship process in NITIE unlike any other institutes except SPJIMR.  This internship is supposed to be done in the company in which student gets placed. Since, Panasonic didn’t offer me this internship, So I’m free these 4 months and decided to enjoy by visiting friends and relatives. Currently I’m heading to Hyderabad to meet my eldest sister and few friends. It would be fun there.

Another dimension of human behaviour I noticed in me. My ex-classmate in premier B-school of India, got a fat package of 15-16 LPA. I’m totally jealous and hate him. I want to kick his ass out. Actually, not just me, everybody in our class disliked him during BE days. I was completely indifferent to him in those 4 years until the day in 8^th semester when he gave some disliking remarks to me, as he thought he got permission to evaluate every one if he got admission in top B-school. In order to curb this jealousy, I would try to outshine him in career success or atleast come equal to him.

This is my first job and I’m very happy for this. I still can’t forget the first day at St. Mary’s where I took admission in 2^nd standard. My mom came with me to school. I was nervous because I changed school and didn’t know anybody there. I also remember my first day to college in DCE where I was ragged. Again the first day at NITIE which was chill. I feel joyous when I see all the efforts and hardwork in Saharanpur which helped me to go Delhi and in turn the hard work in Delhi which led my path to Mumbai. And now from Mumbai to Gurgoan. Life has taken so many twists and turns so far. I made so many friends in this journey among which some are still there and some not.

I’m really fed up of this flirting habit I’ve got. I want to get rid of it. I can’t actually resist flirting whenever I see a cool chick. Sometimes I feel myself as Barney of HIMYM. Though a degree less than him as he’s completely behind nailing every chick he encounters. I’m worried that I may meet my Ms. Right and may not identify her in this whole game. But still fingers crossed. Vaise, I got a proposal from a girl in Lucknow J she was my school mate and currently pursuing MBBS. But since I don’t feel for her I said no and refrain myself from playing with her feelings. We are still friends. Another twist happened early this month where my ex asked me to reunite with her. But I don’t want to go back as I don’t love her anymore. People are weird and so their ways.

Recently I watched a movie called 17 again and I’m in love with it. One of the romantic movies I like most. Can’t remember anything more to write.         

Festive season making me mad.... :)

 

Some confusion is going on around me. This is part of life but I’m frustrated because people are doubting my actions and words as well.  Since, I’m part of Cultural forum SPICMACAY in NITIE, so I initiated the planning process for the upcoming event in November. I did this because nobody else was coming forward to initiate. I’m not strict but I always want to have a discipline in team. So, one of my mail regarding meeting created misunderstanding among people and the worst part was that nobody came to ask or clear it but took a strong stance against me. So, currently 3 people are against me. But I’ve decided to stick with the truth whatever may be the consequences. I will face it. Even if, I’m ignored in the event I will accept it. Well, this will go on. Why should I waste my time and energy thinking all this crap because I’ve read many times that people who follow right path or do right thing have to face much criticism. I will fight it with much inner strength.

Next thing is that I’m very excited about Diwali. This is one festival in whole year that I love the most. Though I’ve spent 3 weeks at home due to my chicken pox but still I’m on to go home this Diwali. I love this festival because some of the very nice incidents happened to me during or near Diwali. For example, I used to call her many times when I was at home for Diwali, I met P while going to home on Diwali last year, talked a lot with P last Diwali, meeting some of my best school buddies, late night chats with my bestest buddy Jatin, helping mom in decorating home, meeting random school girls on roads because they are also on holiday, travelling for home with all these feelings, jagmag lights at home and much more. There are also things that I hate about Diwali like too much traffic, no space to walk because of roadside vendors, too much rush on shops. But nothing is perfect and I still enjoy Diwali.

Afraid of love...

Since past 3 months  I’m out of habit of writing blog. This may be because of too busy academic activities in NITIE. There are lot many thoughts and emotions running in my mind and heart and I can’t hide them any longer. I’m not getting any PPO from Glenmark because I’m not at all interested as they are paying less. So my only hope now lies with NITIE’s final placement and I’m very much sure that I’ll grab a very good job.

Actually, I’m interested in PSU job. I’ve seen the life in a private job in 2 months at Glenmark and it was really pathetic. At least in a PSU job you can pursue your interests, hobbies and also give time to your family. Emotional energy is on a great height now a days. Just after my exams, I headed towards my home. On the way, I met a girl from Varanasi who’s pursuing her MBBS from Meerut. It was nice meeting her. Sometimes we find such a nice people in a journey that we are ready to befriend with them. Same happened with me. But train friendships don’t lasts longer.

Secondly, I’m afraid falling in love again. This I realized recently. I can be very good friend to someone but can’t trust anyone. Though I need someone to care of me, to laugh with me, to play with me and what not. But the fact is I can’t trust anyone because as SRK says in KKHH that “pyar 1 hi baar hota hai. Baar baar nhin hota”. Also other reason is that now I don’t think that my family is going to support me in case of any love marriage. My mom has made her mind for my arrange marriage and also made an image of ideal bahu.

So after spending 1 week at home, I went back to Mumbai. But as soon as I reached Mumbai, I suffered from chicken pox and was quarantined in my room for a week. Then Mom came and took care of me along with Abhineet, Amitabh, Gaurav, Aashu and Anuraag—my friends. Mom was worried about my weakness and so took me back to home and now I’m resting at home. Probably next week I’ll make my move for Mumbai and hopefully will start the placement preparation full-fledged. Also will try to get out of my sulky emotions as a hope always lies in my heart for “ SOME1 SOMEWHERE IS MADE FOR YOU”…

Sapney....

Last night I saw a dream and after a long time I’m able to recollect it. But this time it was special. Yes, I saw SRK and Jaya bachhan in my dream. I know it sounds funny and crazy. Actually the location was my BH1 hostel of NSIT and I was roaming in the hostel. I saw both of them tweeting on a big projector screen. You can see anything in your dream :) . I got very excited to see both of them. Not too much with Jaya but more with SRK. I told him that he’s my idol and he laughed. He was in a shirt and below towel wrapped (anything in a dream you know :P).He asked me why I think so. I was bit nervous and also excited. Then suddenly he started walking into his apartment (he wasn’t living in Mannat :D). But while going, he gave me a bouquet and also autographed it. Suddenly I asked him for a photo with me. I told him that I’ve a digital camera and I will bring it soon. He said ok bring it in jus t2 minutes. So I ran towards my room and don’t know what happened to my speed that I took ½ hour to bring the camera. But when I came back, there was nothing like SRK and I was very very disappointed. I thought he’d gone since I took so much time. But when I woke up in the morning, then realised it was a dream :( .
But I’m happy that at least I met him in my dream and probably one day will meet him in reality too. I know that the whole dream is too crazy to handle. But anything can happen in your dream no… :)

My mitr...

 So today’s lazy Sunday and I planned to go panajim’s Miramar beach. But couldn’t get anyone to come along.  So dropped the idea and slept for 3 hours. I know it sounds boring. This is what I’ve been doing from the last 3 Sundays. But can’t help it. I’m just counting my days here in Goa. Also, I bought a Sony’s Digital camera from my 1^st salary. Yippee… I was planning to buy it from long back and now finally it’s here. Though it’s very basic model but it will serve the purpose for the time being.

As I wrote it was a lazy Sunday, so I was fully occupied with only thoughts and no actions. I was actually thinking about my friend P. I don’t know whether we are good buddies, only buddies or just college mates because we don’t talk to each other on phone regularly. We don’t chat regularly. We don’t ask about each other’s wellbeing. We only chat after reading the status on gtalk. I’m such a stupid that forgot his birthday this time and wished him the same day but at the last. I’m really very very bad in remembering wedding, birthday, anniversary dates. God help me else my wife would kill me. :P

I prefer not to disturb him because he stays very busy. If he takes time in replying, then I try not to ping him again. He never calls me. It’s not like I expect a call always but sometimes I ask myself do friends behave like this?

But still in all those 4 years of college, I’ve laughed with him, studied with him (though sometimes), had fun with him and also cried with him. Yes, I’ve cried on his shoulders because he could only understand my tears. When nobody could understand me or my problem, I always called him and he was there with me. He supported me in my really tough times when even my love backed out. I really miss him sometimes. But actually he’s always in hurry. So can’t afford to waste his time. For me, he’s my true buddy. I don’t know about his opinion.  

I know he reads my blog. But the purpose of writing this post is not to tell him anything. Actually I really admire him for the way he is. He has a small child in him who makes him laugh, to enjoy, to worry, to dance and to sing too. I’m not saying that this child is not there in me but I don’t expose him all the time. I just smile at him when the child in me reacts to anything.  He is a geeky types who’s always engrossed in all news, novels, latest updates and what not. But I’m not like that. I respect the way he is though sometimes I get irritated when he doesn’t chats with me aimlessly, when he doesn’t talks on phone much, when he’s always in hurry. But he’s my friend and I don’t want him to change his behaviour towards me. I always try to keep him with me forever like FRIENDS FOREVER :)

LORD OF LIGHT..It is..

Today, I feel the most stupid person in this world. The reason behind this is something that everyone will laugh at. From my childhood, I always thought that my name’s meaning is Lamp of God. This is because I’m over influence by Hindi language. I read “sandhi vichhed” in class 10th and did sandhi for my name i.e. Deep+esh. I derived the meaning as lamp of God. Actually I can’t even blame my parents for that since it’s a Sanskrit word.
So by chance, today, I was searching the meaning of my name on google and the search returned something totally different. So finally, the meaning of my name is “Lord of Light”. Actually, it’s feeling very very stupid to change the mind set about the meaning of my name after 23 years. But will do it for sure.